i was thinking about how after going upstairs knowing i was coming right back down, jordan said "bye tyler." which was kind of like a summation of how im sure my roommates all view me. im reclusive and anti-social. what happened to the tyler they used to know, i'm sure they wonder to themselves.
i figured out that THAT tyler lives outside his house. when i come home, when i'm in my room or making food etc., i'm all on my own and very much doing my own thing. this makes SO much sense when i look at my whole life and how i have always very much preferred to go over to friend's houses or just NOT be at my house. i rarely ever invite people over because when i do i don't know how to have company. in my mind, i'm at my house and that means i'm just entertaining myself, which i am very very good at doing, so it's weird having someone else around to worry about. even when i lived andrew, i would spend a lot of time purposefully avoiding him and now i see why. when i'm at home, it's alone time. andrew was able to get me out of it often enough though, because he's...well, he's andrew!
i think this is a good thing to know. i will possibly have to work on it for the future, what with a wife and kids and all that good shit i assume i'm going to acquire someday. but then again, once i get out of the house i am normal social tyler (unless you catch me on a solitary errand, like grocery shopping. i think i already wrote a bloggy thing about how i saw people at king soopers and i was just so damn flustered. if i didn't, well, then, i was really flustered having to talk to people when i was dead set on just getting groceries on my own). like with andrew, at home i was all reclusive, but if he got me outside the house, or we had planned to do something, i was all in it.
anyways, just a fun thing to note about me. go me. you're so very god damn bizarre.
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